The Adventures of a Cancer Mom! Have you ever been so scared that you sucked in your breath and held it, well I feel as if I am still holding that first breath.
Christian and I (Sarah) are the parents of a 4 yr. old, beautiful, sweet boy named Sven who was diagnosed with Leukemia on 4.19.09. Immediately we started chemotherepy treatment for Sven with the Pediatric Oncology Center @ Stony Brook University Hospital on Long Island, NY. I will outline some highs and lows and most of all type some frustrations away :-)
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I was downloading all my pictures from my iPhone and found these three that really made me smile. This week has marked a year since Sven's cancer diagnosis, in some ways I feel like the year went so fast and then on other days I feel crippled at the way time seems to have stopped and this whole mess is still circling around us, I have stopped trying to figure it out.
I chose these images because the first two had been taken before his diagnosis and no matter his looks today, these are still the images I see daily, the smiley Sven, making me laugh, making me laugh so hard I had to pee. Not to say I don't see him for who he is today, I do, I just think maybe I have seen everything black and white and these color pictures of Sven just remind me of how vibrant his personality is and a reminder of our life will go back to vibrant color one day when all this has been left behind and we have kicked cancer's but!
I am Sven's Mom Sarah! I am trying to get through these days, and months and years (almost 1) of my son's cancer diagnosis. Most days are still sad but I try and keep my chin up because I take keeping this family healthy and happy seriously. My husband is my rock and Sven is my light. I still cry daily though now when I feel it coming I hide in the bathroom with the door locked I think Sven worries for me too much, his heart is soooo big!