Ughhhh! Yesterday was clinic day and though Sven was off (his behavior & mood off) this past week, you know acting sort of 5, he usually acts so cute and sweet like a little man all manners and politeness, and random people comment to us that he is so well behaved and perfect, so I thought hey he is just being a normal 5 year old and to us that is a good thing except my nerves are a bit frayed from the amount of times I am saying NO Sven! So ya think I could have figured it all out, the doctor called last night and said Sven's blood counts dropped to 700 (WTF&*%$!) which means he is on the border of being neutropenic (worse than a suppressed immune system, basically it means no immunity). So today I will make the house sterile and put away all fluffy bacteria holding things and keep people away, I will also have to explain to Sven that we will have to be extra careful and keep our activities limited to be safe! I am praying that we get a safe passage through this low count time and rebound by next week! I think I will need to cry today, and also cancer just kicked me in the butt and reminded me that I can't let me gaurd down! Fight Sven fight!