It has been awhile, and an even longer while that I have been able to organize some thoughts and put them to keyboard for my blog. Time and days and months have been whizzing by me, so instead of a specific event or thought or worry... on my mind is time, as I sit here behind me sleeps a growing boy, I am amazed at the length of him when I watch him sleeping from head to toe when did he grow that long? I still see the face of my little baby boy but it it is now surrounded by the big boy he is becoming, his hair is all grown in and his cheeks are rosy from playing in the sun. I don't ever dare to get comfortable in the good times because I can't afford breaking my heart again but OH MY GOD do I love to let cancer lurk in the background of my thoughts and let the smiles and laughter be first and foremost in my mind! We are having a fun-filled summer start and I love the 5 year old mind that does not even remember the mess of last summer!